mindless

it's been a while since i was this relaxed.... today i _____, but for no rhyme or reason.

looking through old video clips and photos in an attempt to clean up my laptop... it's true what they say.. it's funny, how i always remembered my past was never as good as where i am now, but that's just a psychological pacification system the brain must simulate... a mini-adaptation process, an opioid for the daily drudge/routine/getting on with work/adulthood. so yes, i had a youth, with tons of photos and videos for evidence.

when your mind is a mess so is mine i can't sleep
because it hurts when i think when my thoughts aren't at peace

all the words that we said and the words that we mean
and the words can fall short, can't see the unseen.

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still, why did i ____?